Happy moments are all short-lived..
Deep in my heart, i know the ans was obvious, though it wasnt straighfoward..
I know all these while i have been living in my world of "self-denial"
I just feel tired of being alone in this one-way-traffic..
My lifestyle change, everything change.. I tried to change too.. For the better..
Somehow it's so screwed up and wasnt easy to passby each day..
I've become slient, motionless, numbed, dulled and colourless.. It wasn't me anymore..

Despite the advice given from frens,
I stick with my own decision,
hoping one day i could get her love back one day..
It's not easy to love someone this hard..
And i know, one day i will break my own heart for you..

Even a fat pig can get a sow,
just like anyone could get a partner easily outside..
But I don't want just anyone !! The feel wasn't right..
It's you !! Only you !! Cause u're special to me..
No matter what i said, not gona helps?
The rest, the choice, the decision lies in you hand for now and in future..
I know maybe u're afraid the treament between now and furture gona be different..
What else are you considering??

Life is like a bet.. I took my last bet, my final chip..
Nothing is a sure win, the story of "Cherry & Apple" still affects greatly..
Which guy wouldn't feel jealous by seeing thier loved one going out with another guy..
Loving someone shouldn't be that painful i guess.. But why...

木美人 ah, 木美人...
When will you feel for me??
Will you try to feel for me??
When will the day come??
My intitution tells me it's not comming..
But i told you, i gona wait..

Tell me if you do have feels? Or when it's totally hopeless..
Tell me everything that's going on, dont let me be the last to find out..
It's totally pointless to tell you how much i have for you everyday,
when i don't even have a chance to prove those words..

What do you see on the surface? It's only an empty shell?
It's like a dream to me.. When will i wake? How much further can i take..
Take each steps at a time, and make every steps counts?
Some sleepless nights, i am in need of sleeping pills..

"I did my very best.. I done what i could.. What else can i do.."
The song, Beautiful Soul - Jesse McCatney, brings out what i feel..

*P.s. It's so hard to smile nowadays.. I'm tired of one-way-traffic..